Hello my sweet mom and dad
sounds like you guys are busy at home and
getting ready for gav to leave soon! Yes I talked to my sweet
mission President about everything. After many prayers, fasting, and
talking with him, the other night he called me and asked how I was
doing....I just broke down crying telling him about the week and what
happened...and these were his words, "Dear Sorella Rindlisbacher, it
has been quite the journey for you huh. You have struggled like this
ever since you arrived in Italy, but you kept pushing through. I
remember our first interview, you told me about your sleep, and in
tears said, president I'm going to keep going because I have faith god
with give me strength to endure the long days of work. And you did!
You've made it 5 transfers and that's a long time with all that you've
been dealing with, and Sorella Rindlisbacher I am here to tell you
that god is proud of you for enduring it. He's grateful for your
faith, and that you pushed for so long, but right now it's important
we get you the proper help you need to get better, so you can move on
with your wonderful life. (I knew in that moment what I needed to do,
to come home) he continues with, Your sleep worries me it's gotten so
bad, but more than that the thoughts you're having is something that
needs to be corrected, and we've tried stuff here in the mission, we
tried, but it's gotten to this point where going home for your health
is more important. God wants us to be healthy, and this is where we
draw the line. Sorella Rindlisbacher I never want you to forget, never
forget what you've learned from this. God called you to serve, and you
accepted that call, you said I will go and do lord. And you served
your mission! Don't feel pressure from others to come back out,
because both you, I, and the lord knows you served the mission he had
in store for you. You will return as an honorably released
missionary...you came and did what god needed you to do, and just like
sometimes life ends earlier than we would expect, for others It's the
mission...and although we may not understand now, god understands
perfectly, and knows what you will learn from this." I started
balling.....I never wanted to hear those words, but I knew what my
president said was right, and he is an inspired man from god.
That night I could hardly sleep...I was scared to think about going
home....i thought my mission really isn't over is it?? I am going to
miss it so much! I cried and cried, my companion just sat on my bed
with me for a few hours and hugged me as I cried on her shoulder. The
next day I felt so much calmer, and so many little witnesses
that this is what's suppose to happen. Sweet Barbara from Collegno out
of the blue got our number from my last comp, and sent me a text
yesterday with a quote from a talk she read saying something around
the lines of don't let Satan discourage your heart, God is almighty,
all powerful, and your prayers will manifest that unto you. Prayer
will help you fight the adversary.....and the CRAZY part is Barbara
doesn't even know everything that's been going on...it was like god
sent me a little angel telling me it's all going to be okay.
I was also able to talk to the counselor and she said very similar
things as to president Allen, that before I even talked to president
Allen, she talked to him and he told her it would be best if I came
home for help...so he already knew what would happen. Looking back at
these 8 months, I will truly miss my mission, the people, the hard
days, happy days, and this gelato
but I have learned so much and
wouldn't change it for anything! I should be home sometime this week
before gav goes through...still not sure what day but should be in the
next couple days, so I'm not gonna skype anyone just cause I'll be
home soon. I love you guys and we will see at the bottom of that
escalator in a few days️️ also if you want to invite Niyazi and
Dionne to come, they can.
Love Sorella Florence
